hello, this is wonderful speaking.

A lot of wonderful things had been going on of late. So much that I don’t know where or how to begin.

Had the desire to spill the joy from my heart and into this blog, to share with my dearest friends news from my humble sphere, but something tells me that the great way to do it is not by blogging. Nothing beats the excitement you get when talking to your besties over the phone. The giggles especially.

I know I do not make the effort to post enough to even remember my own blog URL. All I did was keep on apologizing for the silence. Perhaps I have become a very private person. The more I wanted to share, the more I’m tempted to keep it inside. A few dear friends have been my favorite tissue to cry on and ears that listen. Story keepers they are.

I am terribly sorry if I seemed to be very distant with a few, time has trapped me in a capsule machine and traveled me far away to some strange unrecognized land of my own. 

All I feel like doing right now is to enjoy my time concealed away. That’s how precious and wonderful my life is at the moment.

But I MUST catch up with all my friends soon. I owe them dinners and luncheons. 

oh?

My trusty ol' facebook's horoscope read:

For once, you are willing to look at things the way they really are. Involve your family when making any major life decisions. Their insight will lead you in the right direction.

Hurmm. Ironic. Very.

this machine kills fascists.

In the mood to write :)

So I finally got to watch I’m Not There a few days back. I love it for the surreal black and white shots but hate it for dragging me longer than I could succumb. I am no fan of Bob Dylan, but watched it to see Cate Blanchett’s performance as Jude Quinn; Dylan’s version at the height of his fame. I heard she was brilliant in the movie and now I just have to agree. She mimics him perfectly! The slouch, the pout, the body language, the sneer….for once I thought its Bob Dylan himself. Out of six characters played by different actors, I think she tops it all. That young black actor who played the youngest version of Dylan comes second.

Seven simple rules of going into hiding: one, never trust a cop in a raincoat. Two, beware of enthusiasm and of love, both are temporary and quick to sway. Three, if asked if you care about the world's problems, look deep into the eyes of he who asks, he will never ask you again. Four, never give your real name. Five, if ever asked to look at yourself, dont. Six, never do anything the person standing in front of you cannot understand. And finally seven, never create anything, it will be misinterpreted, it will chain you and follow you for the rest of your life.

Damn cool, weh.

photography by MN a.k.a woodnocks

i've been meaning to write in something but was busy elsewhere. i'm currently working on a personal project in between managing my so disorganized life. i am so pleased that a few dear friends have been calling me to model-ed for them. i have never done it before, i mean apart from my own self-portrait and with my dearest han ghazi; i have never pose in public or with other models. my first experience was for JY, tang lichard and edmond a couple of weeks back where they made me sat on the bar counter at Mojo in Asian Heritage Row with my LBD and wing on. twas a totally awesome night, i have to say.

coming up on my schedule is a series of black&white portrait that i'm gonna pose for a friend. it's gonna be cool as we've always wanted to work in a project together but never had the chance. that and my own project with fizah, faiz and julian. i hope it will turns out allright.

last night, MN and I had a lovely short meeting with Josh, a photography enthusiast. 'Photography is more than just clicking the shutter', he said. He spoke of photography, of balance and of life in general.

looking at all the photos of me taken by others, i'm all in awe of how one may look at me and portray me in their own essence of photos. the above picture proves to me that sometimes i have to lay my trust on others too. MN captured me in a totally different light there.

i remembered again the words Josh told us that night, 'photography slows us down. it makes us stop and think, makes us appreciate all the beauty around us. photography balances us and keeps us sane in this mad, mad world.'

i've been going on so fast that i forgot to stop and smell the flower. MN taught me something with this picture.

about faith, about trust, about slowing down and believing in myself.

i hope he knows that.

film!

Sorry for the non-update. Been busy with personal life; family, work, friends and loved ones. I'll feed you with stories when there's some to tell :)

Pictures taken using MN's new toy, ze F501 film, 50mm f1.8 E-Series and Kodak Professional PJ100.

We photographers are happy people!