But of course I did not spend all 24 hours plonking my ass happily at home. Went to a small shopping mall where my brother used to buy his groceries when he was in high school last Saturday. Eka and Nadiah brought me there to show the moroccan lamp I wanted for my wedding. It was cool alright and if all goes well, we’ll have the lamp. Kinda cool to look around for wedding stuff together with your close friends who’s also getting married.
Sunday went up to Cameron Highland with MN and his dad (soon-to-be my dad). His dad is also an avid photographer and a very well-travelled man so we had an amazing time listening to his travel stories. We snapped around and sipped tasteful earl grey by the plantation area. Everything looked so purplish-ly beautiful at sunset. Weather was rather chilly as it rained cats and dogs when we arrived.
We were supposed to hop on the train scheduled at 5am to Tampin the next day but I screwed up the plan on behalf of everyone. Thought roadtrip would be a bad idea this time around. I need to load off and catch some Zs, tempt my body with some massage and good food. I must say - stinky coach, heavy backpack and restless journey was indeed a very very win-over thing for me but I guess I gotta stick to my sine qua non; notice the two big words in one line? That means, my rest is unquestionably needed.
CNY made more than half of the city dead. KL was immobilized and most of my fav places were closed till 2nd. My whole family were out traveling all over the world- sometimes its not a good thing to have a traveling family - and I can’t reach out to my traveling mates either coz they were out..err..traveling.
A phone conversation:
Me- Hello. Awak baru bangun?
Friend: *sounded very sleepy* Err ye.
Me: Oh, maaf. Ingat mahu ajak awak pergi makan seafood. Umbai jom!
Friend: Errrr....saya di London?
Everyone was on hols so what more can I do than to just stay put in a place and watch movie? For someone who as mobile as I am, its pathetic to be so stagnant. MN who felt my anxiety tried to bring me out somewhere on Monday where we ended up in a dead, sleepy, hollow perkampungan orang asli in Hulu Selangor. Honestly, I slept the whole way there and when I woke up I was absolute clueless of the whereabouts. Saw a huge signage saying ‘D’Rasa Seafood’ and since we were hungry we thought why not try the food. The place was descent, built on top of a lake. But i have to say this, if I know where we were from the beginning, I might have a second thought on dining there. Its fine if we were on a road trip and trapped in an unknown place. Its understandable to go hantam anything in the name of surviving but that day it felt totally weird. Or maybe its just a feeling, maybe I woke up on the wrong side of car seat. Anyway, after dinner we head on a few kilometers further and found a damn great spot to watch sunset. The sky was incredibly blue and suddenly the whole world felt spectacularly vast. I sat in the car (kinda scary to go out actually) watching the sky as if twas so near that I could touch the fluffyness of clouds with my bare fingers. Monday has never felt this fantastic, man.
Will be out of town this weekend to scout for my beach wedding in Penang, have a joy ride and eat lots of foooood.
*pause*
Sometimes, life is really about this ya know - enjoying every second that goes by without hesitation, knowing when to take control and when to just let loose. Some things we need to see for ourselves. Gotta make our own mistakes and learn from all the damn lessons thrown. Embracing struggle, appreciating small victories. MN reminds me each time - be thankful with whatever we have.
Life can be terribly painful, there's always gonna be surprises popping out from a corner and bite you up in the ass but you just gotta keep on riding, breathe deep and wait for the agony to subside.
And never be in denial. Sooner or later we have to put the mask aside and face the world. So why lie and pretend? To be screwed by truth is the worst of feelings. And to hide from it and blame it on others is another thing, I suppose. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. At some point, you have to make a decision. Well like Grey said - ‘At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is a reason enough to celebrate.’
Now I can't wait to drown in good food. Maybe can take a quiet stroll by the beach too.
