.its just going to hurt more.
I had a good time today, went out with Noreen and Kayla to Sg Wang…in search of the photography mag Riz has suggested me to buy.
I’m quite happy actually, I think I’ve found people who be-friend me sincerely. Both girls didn’t mind crossing the lecak road, in the rain, and accompany me to the mag shop just because I wanted to buy the mag so badly. Thank u darls…..love u gals a lot. *muahs*
We went out quite late in the evening, and end our day drinking lemonade and mocha whilst listening to the live band at a nearby café. Everyone was exhausted when we reached home; we bid goodbyes and went straight to bed.
And while I was trying to do some catch up with emails and msg-es that I felt provoked with the usual loneliness feeling. I was browsing through a friend’s friendster when I realized that he had broken up with his long time girlfriend. And what makes me feel so blue was that he still kept her photos in his friendster with captions like “it was great to have her around” and stuff like it. I mean, he sincerely loves his ex-girlfriend so much that he still appreciates the beautiful relationship despite the break up which I assume must be pretty awful for both of them.
I always wished that my previous relationship would be as beautiful as theirs even when we are no longer together. I mean, for the sake of friendship. But none of it ends up likewise. It seems like they just turn around without saying goodbye and left me with stupefied feelings.
Each and every single one of them.
And I hate it. I hate it that they walk away just like that. Like it didn’t mean anything to them, not even a little bit of feeling. No goodbyes, no hugs, no nothing. They turn around, and vanish into thin air. Leave me no trails or whatsoever. Even the one who always said that he will never love no one else but me, fails to show his appreciation.
Maybe, I never mean anything to anyone.
How sad. How sickening.
Living my life pathetically happy.
__Ib
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love's a bitch
ehe, just my 2 cents..
love's not a bitch.
love between a woman and a man are indeed magical though sometimes it hurts.
i miss my baby boy, asrine *sigh* i miss hantz *sigh*
hurm ... well, whe someone made his way in your heart, and you gave them a permanent piece of yours, its okay to miss them ...
they do appreciate you I guess, but maybe too macho and ego enough to admit it ...
there are some crushes whom have made me feel that butterflies in my tummy, they'll always be in mind mind regardless I exist in their lives or not ...
but its no excuse to not be happy and have a smile on your face ... sorrows are supposed to build your heart, not tore it apart actually.
dear abby.
thank u darls...your wise words often make sense to my mindnumbing brain.
yes, i guess missing them doesnt bring me any harm.
this loneliness might come and go but the sweet and bitter memories of my past relationship will always remain in my heart and soul.
and i kinda remember what azuar said to me the other day: what past is past.
but sometimes, its okay to peep back a little,remember the memories and missing them, right?
and i agree with abby, whatever the circumstances could be, its no excuse for me to not be happy.
Alhamdullilah i still got friends who cares like you guys =))
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