.in confusion, came a rescue.

I need to blog but then my mind went numb *frustrated look*

It’s been hell at the office. Muhkriz and I had trouble facing typical non-educated idiot people.
I was about to sleep when I received a call from Muhkriz who sounded tired and troubled. “I need you at the office. Can you come over?” So woosh go Ibah to the rescue. It was a long and tiring day for us, waiting for… I don’t know…uncertainties? We managed to finish up the commercial’s storyboard. The presentation did turn out lovely, and yes we did get hold of the job.

But are we interested to get involved with the project? Hah.

It was frustrating when all the hard work we struggled to make it happen goes all wasted, even more maddening when other people get credited for it. Muhkriz was annoyed, but he managed to say it calmly “Let it be. Mungkin bukan rezeki kita.”

It was a frustrating day indeed, so we went on a ride on ‘roller coaster’ that night, searching for some answers and conviction. Had a late supper somewhere in Damansara. The food? It didn’t taste that good or was it because of my troubled mind? Honestly, that night I felt, defeated. As an individual, as a friend, as a woman. I want to know my worth of existence in this life.

It was getting late by the time we reached Subang. The actual plan was to crush at Haidar’s place but something came up so Muhkriz had to drive me back to CJ. (even though he wasn’t in a good mood and without license).

Muhkriz: I’m glad that I have you as a friend, I’m even proud of having you.
Me: Oh.
Muhkriz: Ibah, are you sad or something? Are you okay?
Me: …

Okay, I can’t help myself but to cry. I told Muhkriz everything, the doubts in mind and the confusion I’m facing. He tried to comfort me and suddenly felt guilty for telling him my probs since his was even much bigger. In nuisance, we hang out at the mamak up to 6 in the morning, trying to console each other’s little soul. *Thank God for a good friend* For the first time after knowing Muhkriz since those days he visited me during Raya with his samping and faux-hawk hair, he actually really listened to me and show his attention. *sniff* He even did a magic, well not practically magic but the trick did work. Reminds me of Asrine’s ‘fire magic’, where he lights a fire on his palm and said “look, that’s you.” *sniff*

Thank you Muhkriz, though a simple thank can’t show how much I appreciate your help in everything.

*hugs Muhkriz and Haidar*

Love you guys a lot.


Living my life pathetically happy.
__Ib