.back.

back for school, after chilling with my family and friends in Muar for Aidilfirti. It was indeed a blissful raya, Alhamdullilah. Had a great time visiting relatives and close friends. Since I didn't had much time to beraya sakan last year, this year had been a big chance for me to make up with my friends who had been complaining about my hiatus. Watched some great movies on TV, went for movies with friends...think, I have become an avid movie-goer (I can hear Muzzo roaring with laughter somewhere in the distant). Had diarrhea on the fifth of raya, due to excessive makan-makan at my friends'. It was.....crazy! Had mee hoon goreng at Salmi's, popiah and lotsa kuih raya at Anem's, mee bandung at mine, then had two plates of prawn filter with coke with the girls at the bakery, had nuggets and O.R fillet burger in the car while on our way to Sara's...it was...unbelievable. All three of us had to take turn to use the loo! Salmi gained a kilo in three days...me? I don't know...I don't think gaining a kilo would do much of a change to my petiteness. I never bother anyway, haha.

Speaking of gaining weigh, went for a jog with him at our usual park.

Him: I'm afraid of engagements. It scares me.
Me: I thought it's something you always want all this while...settling down.
Him: I'm still.....with you around....I....do u miss me? Dah lama tak pergi jogging kan?
Me: *went numb*

Honestly, I think guys have the tendency to freak out more than girls during the engagement process...though I think it's only normal to have a hard time to forget first love. Even harder when he/she lives nearby. I don't blame him though. As for me, first love is often a sincere, healthy relationship...and mine was. There's no lust involved, just a giddy feeling and butterflies in my tummy...for all I could remember. It lasted for two years and we ended it without arguements or hard feelings. It seems to...wash away with time. I can't remember myself crying over the break up or went histerical when he found someone new, let alone when he got engaged. Maybe this is why he had a hard time to forget? We are still good friends, keeping in touch whenever we could though I found him irritating when he keep asking about 'have u had urself a boyfriend yet you old grandmah?'. I still visit his aunt who lives alone near my place whenever I could, due to my respect to his family. She's one of my fav aunt in the world, we would discuss about the guys I like for hours and drink tea.

What I had with him was now a cherished memories, I no longer felt sour whenever I pass his house or went to the park. I treasure him and the memories we had, more than ever.

I want to talk more about raya in Muar...and post some photos...but maybe later.

Living my life pathetically happy.
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