.good day.

The day's wasting away. Watched Wimbledon for the fourth time. It was a good watch for a lazy evening with nothing to do. Okay not that there's nothing to do but i chose not to do anything. I'm not a paul bettany's fan but i think he looks sexy in the movie. White shirt and tennis. Clean cut and fit. My definition of sexy.

I've been in town for a week now but i haven't meet up with my close friends yet. Will make it up to them once i'm back to Cyberjaya. Hang out at Shakirah's cosy crib to watch CSI and played PS2 with her boyfriend. Havent been to her crib for a while now. My big cousin Shafique was at college for two days and kept calling to meet but I was just too damn lazy to drive there. Me, the lazy bugger. I owe him an apology and a lunch. its a new semester in a whole new year, i should get the lazy bug out of my system. been on holiday far too long now.

had a pleasant dinner with azrul yesterday. nando's chicken strips with rice and salads. had the flavor mild with hot flaming sauce. just returned from a hiking expedition, he talked about KK and how cold it was there. he's into sports and outdoor activities. rock climbing is in his to-do list for this year. and he has a long run to do this weekend. now, doesn't this makes me look like a lazy bugger even more?

we were surprised with the lovely deco of OUG's Secret Recipe. I've been to different spots, but this one tops it all. 'we'll hang out here next time.' he says. Cakes and comfy couch, I can't help but to agree. Think, I shouldn't be too defensive around anyone. Always let my guard up whenever one approaches. Its silly for me to think one will only go out with me just because. Even sillier to freak out, running around like a headless chicken when i heard them uttering the word 'i like you.' But he didn't freak me out or uttering the silly word. In fact, I cant thank him enough for having to do the trouble walking in the rain to return my handphone which i left in his car. Ibah, ibah.

Things can go from 'fancy' to 'like' to 'love' and move on towards 'hurt' and back to 'love' again. I think its the law of nature. I've been doing silly things to myself lately that had caused me pain. Not just to me but to someone I've kept so dear at heart as well. To see the tears running down his cheek was the most terrible feeling I've ever felt.

Which makes me think. Its awful, the feeling, but I need to learn to pull myself together each time the pain try to swing itself at me. I asked myself this when I was at his place the other day, 'Am i willing to take the risk to hurt myself everyday and see him hurt at the same time? Just because I want to be with him.' Its not worth the risk at all if two people are hurt. I dont want him to carry the pain in his heart. The only risk i will be taking is the risk of not being able to be there by his side when he grows old.

'So, wanna go out with me again next time?' azrul asked.

To shoot some pictures! Yay! I think he'll make a good canon buddy.