.words.

i've been thinking a lot this morning.

forget and be forgotten. forgive and be forgiven.

and trying to believe in things that i dont know. i have come this far, there's no turning back. there are times when i feel like the thoughts wanted to pull me down and step on me. but i tried to see the truth in everything. remind myself of what he had said to me.

'i doubt it now that you really love me.'

and for this word i toughen myself everyday to stay as far away as i could and subliminally tell him;

'i no longer exist in your life. will this tells you that i really do?'

you wont see the tears running down my cheek anymore. you wont hear my sad voice whipping. the burden on your shoulder is now on mine.

tears has run dry on my pillow. sad voice whipping silently in my head.

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watched blood diamond with an old friend. he has movie passes that allows him to watch movies for free every frickkin' day.

had to say, two thumbs up.

Danny says to Maddy:

'Sometimes, I wonder; will God ever forgive us for what we've done to each other? Than I look around and I realize... God left this place a long time ago.'

this movie makes me think of life. of humanity wholly.