. ibah and emotional turmoil.

Woke up with a terrible headache and a lousy feeling. It seems to be a long morning, as it feels practically impossible to get my motor running.

Once after a long while, i think i had enough. I had enough with the people around me, the slow-moving traffic, the polluted environment, the stupid design on my mug (i dont even know why i bought it at the first place), the turndowns i get in return of the friendship i gave, the negativity people throw at me, the lack of parking spaces, the drivers who cut the line in front of me, the songs on my mp3 playlist, my colleague's annoying ringtones, timbaland's "the way i are" and the list goes on. In other words, i'm practically annoyed with pretty much everything.

Today, i am not a positive ibah.

I dont like to sigh, dont like to whine and wail eventhough i do complaint quite a lot; because its tiring to the mind. Tak penat ke sigh sigh sigh? PENAT! i'm tired of listening/reading/looking at the word SIGH.

It suck me in and weigh me down to the ground.

Think, i am immune to turndowns too. "Malas lah." "Malas lah." "Malas lah." Nak buat macam mana, melayu memang ada yang pemalas for real. I'm the kinda person who appreciate those who is close and dearest to me. I can drive up to anywhere just to be there for them, with them, but its annoying to be turn down by a lame excuse like "ala...malaslah." or "ala...i takde mood." It happen lots of time already and i say hell. I dont really mind if its because of real excuses like sickness or work. Gosh.

I'm even mad at those who attack me with sarcastic jokes just because they are bitter o_O

A friend told me to take it easy.

Perhaps, all i need is a little space for myself..even just for a day. Perhaps i've been pushing myself too hard this time.

Breathe in, breathe out.