Yes, people. I am currently in Muar. Why, you ask? Lets just say that I need some time to hibernate and let my creative muscles to grow. To be frank, I myself still try to find the means to stay here: work, family...okay i am still a little bit clueless but its just something that i gotta do for myself. These things are all swirling around in my head and how i wish i could explain it well. My decision of residing here temporarily had left some of my dear friends in bewilderment. They threw me a fun farewell dinner at my favorite kopitiam. Its a weird heavy goodbye I must say.
And in a week's time, not only i had to say bye to them but also to several other things. My house in Cyberjaya, my teddies that i gave away, my ex's stuff that i dumped into the dustbin and the hardest had to be with my beloved Ped and my best friend Ira who wed Fakhri last Saturday. I could say its a hello and goodbye week.
The whole reason of i am feeling all sorts of feeling at the moment is perhaps due to the need of reshuffling. It has been days i tried to reassure myself that by closing one door and open up another wont set off some time ticking bomb that destroys my entire universe. I need to reconfigure my life and i'm gonna start right now before the strata starts to crack and earth collapse under my feet. I dont want to be just some odd species stalking the planet yo! I want to see, hear and feel life. I want to be a little more subtle, a little more aware, a little more creative. I can sense the changes inside of me, i totally love it and want to chanel the vibe in the most positive way i could. I dont want to be living in a box anymore, my life is on the roll of a ball - revolving through times, especially with my work. I dont put on any hope to be taken seriously though, just enough to color the creative world.
Yesterday, spoke to a few creative friends and the conversations was really inspiring that i barely open my mouth to respond. Met a new friend, Udey Ismail at Ira's wedding. He wore a black shirt with 'Hired Shooter' written on the back. Interesting. He asked "So, are you a freak too?" "Yeah, i am!" replied I. I have no idea what Ira had told him about me but i'm sure its about my addiction to camera. Talking to him, i can sense his deep passion in photojournalism. I swear i can see his eyes twinkle whenever he spoke of photography. Its genuine and earnest. There's something about the way he talks that made him appear cute. We were at the mosque for Ira's photoshoot when he showed me his masterpiece. "Where did you take this?" i wonder. Excitedly, he brought me to the side of the mosque and triumphly said "Here!" and began to spill me lots of tips! You can view my own masterpiece in my flickr. By the end of the evening, both Ira and I fell in love with the soft spoken and humble Udey. We exchanged numbers and hopefully, i can team up with him for a photoshoot some fine day!
Still on the same topic, received a surprise call from my friend, Elyna. Another great conversation that stimulate my brain. Upon hearing her sincere offer to do a personal project, my chest felt heavy and i thought "Could this be the open door?" And the rest, i shall leave to God to give the best in his own time.
Oh, flickr and photoblog updated! There's a few pieces that i like such as my first try on landscape. Thank you Jeremy who kindly lent me his polarizer for the shot and showed me some interesting tricks. Eka, as always, helped me with my self-portraits. To those of my schoolmates who had missed Ira's wedding, here are some of the shots i've picked. I'm sorry if the shots aren't any good, there were too many photographers present that day,i wasnt the main photographer and squeezing in wasnt that fun either!
And these are the latest of me :D
