I was on my way to work this morning when i saw the TUDM practicing for the merdeka parade. There were at least eleven helicopters flying around in the sky, carrying flags. One carried the big malaysian flag while the rest bear the states ones.
It looked like a mommy chicken with ten baby chickens tailing her from behind, swirling around in the sky.
Malaysia's birthday is just around the corner. Remembered how my late dad used to bring me to dataran merdeka to watch the parade. I love watching the march past. He'll carry me up on his shoulder and would happily tell me his 'little stories' of how the japanese army used to fell in love with my grandma and wanted to kidnap him. We would bring along some sandwiches mom made for us and ate it while walking from Brickfields to Dataran Merdeka. We'll look at the clouds and he would sing some tamil song and i'll giggle like mad. He was a merry person, my dad.
Ayah, i miss him.
I want to watch the parade this year.
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.work work *whack*.
Monday and already i'm driving myself nuts at work despite my sore eye. Think, Daniel must have missed me a lot since my long hiatus and that was why he kept me going bonkers at the office till midnight every frickkin day now. His ticket to contagious mad vibes and the craziness that is the event industry was treats to breakfast, lunch and dinner. Hmph. Lots of work to be done, all rushing and piling. Ah, but i'm not whining as i love working. Just that i feel pretty beaten up coz i havent got enough proper rest since forever.
Oh, yes, last two weeks had been quite awesome for yours truly - making a solo jaunt to Kelantan for a wedding photoshoot right after the doctor said "Yes, your chicken pox is not infectious anymore." Left KL friday morning and took a nine hours bus ride to Kota Bharu in hope that it will make me feel like a thirsty traveller. It did not as by the time i arrived at the bus station my ass felt sore like a bitch i have trouble getting up from my seat.
Kelantan is nice. My second time here but the first trip was ages and ages ago. Amazed myself with their outdoor advertising; everything is written in both jawi and rumi. You wont see a celcom ad with maya karin in hijjab anywhere else but here. Still pretty much under developed, the place reminds me of....i want to say kangsar but somehow that doesnt sound right. Pardon me. Anis's family was blardy awesomely cool! I havent seen her mom and sisters since i was fifteen! I sure miss them a lot! Took me just 5 minutes to settle comfortably in their nest. The rest of the gang was warm and friendly too. I had no trouble asking them to pose wacky-lala. The wedding was simple but grand in a way. Made a great friend with Tok Mi, Anis's grandma, despite the accent. "Mu pahe kawe kecek gapo?" "Err..tak sangat tok." "Mu nak kawe kecek london ko kecek KL-lumpo?"
The next day, however, found myself (half) stranded at the Pengkalan Chepa Airport as there was no available ticket to return home to KL as planned, no bus ticket, no train ticket, except for a 5pm flight back. Tripod on one shoulder, a backpack and a trolley bag in my right hand, all alone in a weird strange place, i nearly panicked myself to death. And yours truly was short of cash, and should she bear her great weakness: she is afraid of flying. And heights. Yea, i have trouble with airsickness. Being anywhere above ground level can be a very unpleasant experience for moi. Just thinking about what's underneath sent shivers right through my spine. If not for an important meeting with Daniel, i dont think i would fly that day. Called up my closest friends to keep my mind of things, tried very hard not to stretch my already crazy imagination beyond limit. Huhu. Upon arrival, naufal picked me up at the airport and God knows how i hugged him for being the hero of the day, saving me from my super takutness. Sheesh. Nan-nay.
*tiba-tiba ada jaykay kat belakang..hehe*
Last Saturday witnessed another eventful wedding day as my schoolmate Dira wed her long time beau, Rafiq. Everyone went "Finally, you guys!" Met a few schoolmates i havent seen since the last day i left high school in 1999. All of them are either newly wed, married with kids or happily engaged. I felt happy for them! So, the usual common question popped up "When is your turn, ib?" Brave a laugh i replied "I have to wait until the whole school gets married first, if not, who's gonna take your photos for a cheap price?"
Oh, yes, last two weeks had been quite awesome for yours truly - making a solo jaunt to Kelantan for a wedding photoshoot right after the doctor said "Yes, your chicken pox is not infectious anymore." Left KL friday morning and took a nine hours bus ride to Kota Bharu in hope that it will make me feel like a thirsty traveller. It did not as by the time i arrived at the bus station my ass felt sore like a bitch i have trouble getting up from my seat.
Kelantan is nice. My second time here but the first trip was ages and ages ago. Amazed myself with their outdoor advertising; everything is written in both jawi and rumi. You wont see a celcom ad with maya karin in hijjab anywhere else but here. Still pretty much under developed, the place reminds me of....i want to say kangsar but somehow that doesnt sound right. Pardon me. Anis's family was blardy awesomely cool! I havent seen her mom and sisters since i was fifteen! I sure miss them a lot! Took me just 5 minutes to settle comfortably in their nest. The rest of the gang was warm and friendly too. I had no trouble asking them to pose wacky-lala. The wedding was simple but grand in a way. Made a great friend with Tok Mi, Anis's grandma, despite the accent. "Mu pahe kawe kecek gapo?" "Err..tak sangat tok." "Mu nak kawe kecek london ko kecek KL-lumpo?"
The next day, however, found myself (half) stranded at the Pengkalan Chepa Airport as there was no available ticket to return home to KL as planned, no bus ticket, no train ticket, except for a 5pm flight back. Tripod on one shoulder, a backpack and a trolley bag in my right hand, all alone in a weird strange place, i nearly panicked myself to death. And yours truly was short of cash, and should she bear her great weakness: she is afraid of flying. And heights. Yea, i have trouble with airsickness. Being anywhere above ground level can be a very unpleasant experience for moi. Just thinking about what's underneath sent shivers right through my spine. If not for an important meeting with Daniel, i dont think i would fly that day. Called up my closest friends to keep my mind of things, tried very hard not to stretch my already crazy imagination beyond limit. Huhu. Upon arrival, naufal picked me up at the airport and God knows how i hugged him for being the hero of the day, saving me from my super takutness. Sheesh. Nan-nay.
*tiba-tiba ada jaykay kat belakang..hehe*
Last Saturday witnessed another eventful wedding day as my schoolmate Dira wed her long time beau, Rafiq. Everyone went "Finally, you guys!" Met a few schoolmates i havent seen since the last day i left high school in 1999. All of them are either newly wed, married with kids or happily engaged. I felt happy for them! So, the usual common question popped up "When is your turn, ib?" Brave a laugh i replied "I have to wait until the whole school gets married first, if not, who's gonna take your photos for a cheap price?"
.surreal.
I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete
We started over coffee, we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin
This time it's different
It's all because of you
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it through
Oohh, my favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say to take my breath away
This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone, ooh, someone
I finally found someone, oooh
Did I keep you waiting, I didn't mind
I apologize, baby, that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
And I love your hair, sure it looks fine
I love what you wear, isn't it the time?
You're exceptional, I can wait for the rest of my life
Whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun I finally found someone
yea. daniel make me sing along to this song. haha.
have you ever had the feeling where dreams feel so real and reality seems so fake?
thats exactly how i feel right now. i'd rather dream, though.
anyways, i am currently inspired by a painter and drawer from NYC, stella. Love her works! Dreamy and surreal. Wonder if i can transform the pose into real life photography.
This one reminds me of one my sensual photos :P
I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete
We started over coffee, we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin
This time it's different
It's all because of you
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it through
Oohh, my favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say to take my breath away
This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone, ooh, someone
I finally found someone, oooh
Did I keep you waiting, I didn't mind
I apologize, baby, that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
And I love your hair, sure it looks fine
I love what you wear, isn't it the time?
You're exceptional, I can wait for the rest of my life
Whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun I finally found someone
yea. daniel make me sing along to this song. haha.
have you ever had the feeling where dreams feel so real and reality seems so fake?
thats exactly how i feel right now. i'd rather dream, though.
anyways, i am currently inspired by a painter and drawer from NYC, stella. Love her works! Dreamy and surreal. Wonder if i can transform the pose into real life photography.
This one reminds me of one my sensual photos :P
.Canon Photo Marathon Malaysia 2007.
Venue: PWTC, KL
Date: 26th August 2007 (Sunday)
Time: 7.30 a.m. - 8.00 p.m
12 Hours. 3 themes. 0 breaks in between. Do you have what it takes, to shoot non-stop?
Participants are required to pre-register by downloading registration form from http://www.photomarathonasia.com/ and send it to Canon Photo Marathon Malaysia 2007 secretariat office.
On the actual day of the contest (26th August 2007 - Sunday), each participant will be given 3 separate themes at different times to base their photographs on. They are given 3 hours to complete each thematic work and must return to Putra World Trade Center (PWTC) with their pictures, download them onto the server before getting their next assignment.
Judges will be evaluating all the pictures after each round.
Three sets of prizes (1 winner & 2 merits awards) are given for the best pictures in each round of assignment.
The "Best of Show" will be judged based on all their works in the 3 rounds.
The "Best of Show" winners will receive a grand prize on a Photo Clinic to Kyushu, Japan.
Payment-
1. A registration fee of RM50 will be collected upon registration on 26th August 2007 at Putra World Trade Center.
2. All takings will be donated to Global Environment Centre.
3. Only cash payment is accepted.
4. Please bring the exact amount, as change will not be available.
5. Goodies Bags included: Canon Photo Marathon Malaysia Official Vest, Canon Cap, energy drink & more ...
*Entries are on a first-come-first served basis, limited to first 400 entries. Terms & conditions apply.
To find out more: Please log-on to
http://www.photomarathonasia.com/malaysia/details.html
Organizer/Sponsor: Canon Marketing (Malaysia) Sdn. Bhd.
Technology Sponsor: Switch (Apple Authorized Reseller)
Cheers!
Date: 26th August 2007 (Sunday)
Time: 7.30 a.m. - 8.00 p.m
12 Hours. 3 themes. 0 breaks in between. Do you have what it takes, to shoot non-stop?
Participants are required to pre-register by downloading registration form from http://www.photomarathonasia.com/ and send it to Canon Photo Marathon Malaysia 2007 secretariat office.
On the actual day of the contest (26th August 2007 - Sunday), each participant will be given 3 separate themes at different times to base their photographs on. They are given 3 hours to complete each thematic work and must return to Putra World Trade Center (PWTC) with their pictures, download them onto the server before getting their next assignment.
Judges will be evaluating all the pictures after each round.
Three sets of prizes (1 winner & 2 merits awards) are given for the best pictures in each round of assignment.
The "Best of Show" will be judged based on all their works in the 3 rounds.
The "Best of Show" winners will receive a grand prize on a Photo Clinic to Kyushu, Japan.
Payment-
1. A registration fee of RM50 will be collected upon registration on 26th August 2007 at Putra World Trade Center.
2. All takings will be donated to Global Environment Centre.
3. Only cash payment is accepted.
4. Please bring the exact amount, as change will not be available.
5. Goodies Bags included: Canon Photo Marathon Malaysia Official Vest, Canon Cap, energy drink & more ...
*Entries are on a first-come-first served basis, limited to first 400 entries. Terms & conditions apply.
To find out more: Please log-on to
http://www.photomarathonasia.com/malaysia/details.html
Organizer/Sponsor: Canon Marketing (Malaysia) Sdn. Bhd.
Technology Sponsor: Switch (Apple Authorized Reseller)
Cheers!
.a little cost for company.
Having a week off from work means i have a lot of time to catch up with myself. I read, watch TV and just laze around, stretching myself up on the couch like a cat, doing nothing.
The neighborhood is awfully quiet in the morning, more often than not, eventhough there are times i can hear kids laughing away in the distant when they got home from school in the afternoon.
Most evening was spent napping the day away. Either that or i have a book (or a mag) in one hand and a cuppa on the other. I get to enjoy myself until 9pm coz by then the kids are already home making noises like kiddies do.
Yesterday, on the other hand, found myself doing a lot of thinking. And i realize, well i've been realizing this a long while now, that human, exclude no one, is indeed fragile.
You, me, the guy behind the counter...everyone.
And being little miss fragile, i cant help but to shed a tear last night. My heart just shattered into pieces whilst fighting the disasters inside my head. I felt like a soulless ghost that wanders around at night, spooking every little children who is still not yet asleep. I'm not sure why i felt that way, probably because of my chicken pox, or the book i was reading or the sad song that's been humming inside my head for the past 36 days.
Truth is, i'm gonna spend the rest of my life alone. Sooner or later, all my friends will get married, the guys who comes to me for companionship will find their soulmates and left me shivering cold at night, all by myself.
I'm not sure if anyone would want to stay. Nobody ever stays. They left. I'm like Portman in closer; unlucky. Devote herself to a man who stays for company but left her for a perfect woman.
But hey, at least i got my chicken pox now and not when i'm fifty, old and with a bad weak knee.
I have eight nieces and nephews, to whom i will pour my love and care, telling the girls to always love and respect themselves and to be careful not to get their heart broken by boys and the boys to be a gentlemen, give the seat to the elderly and not to break any girl's heart.
I've done both. I broke a heart and got my heart trampled. Its not a very nice feeling but i've learnt my lesson. You see, i got a little bit distracted by all these petty thoughts. I seriously need to get back to work and hold on to some re-focusing.
Thank you to all you lovely souls out there who've been kind and sweet enough to check in on me everyday. (you know who you're not) Such dears.
Thank you naufal, for the endless talk at nights. I'm gonna miss you a lot comes september.
Right, i'm gonna finish my chicken sausage roll and latte, take my pills and head home.
Where you think i am right now? I'm at starbucks nearby my house. This is ibah you're talking about. She can only be glued on the bed for five days, its a record so far. And i got my MC for two more days coz i'm still not quite heal. Went to MPH last saturday with my sis and bought two more books to read.
One of the book is a cheap one called 'the siren of solace glen' by some not so famous writer.
RM4.90 for a camaraderie.
The neighborhood is awfully quiet in the morning, more often than not, eventhough there are times i can hear kids laughing away in the distant when they got home from school in the afternoon.
Most evening was spent napping the day away. Either that or i have a book (or a mag) in one hand and a cuppa on the other. I get to enjoy myself until 9pm coz by then the kids are already home making noises like kiddies do.
Yesterday, on the other hand, found myself doing a lot of thinking. And i realize, well i've been realizing this a long while now, that human, exclude no one, is indeed fragile.
You, me, the guy behind the counter...everyone.
And being little miss fragile, i cant help but to shed a tear last night. My heart just shattered into pieces whilst fighting the disasters inside my head. I felt like a soulless ghost that wanders around at night, spooking every little children who is still not yet asleep. I'm not sure why i felt that way, probably because of my chicken pox, or the book i was reading or the sad song that's been humming inside my head for the past 36 days.
Truth is, i'm gonna spend the rest of my life alone. Sooner or later, all my friends will get married, the guys who comes to me for companionship will find their soulmates and left me shivering cold at night, all by myself.
I'm not sure if anyone would want to stay. Nobody ever stays. They left. I'm like Portman in closer; unlucky. Devote herself to a man who stays for company but left her for a perfect woman.
But hey, at least i got my chicken pox now and not when i'm fifty, old and with a bad weak knee.
I have eight nieces and nephews, to whom i will pour my love and care, telling the girls to always love and respect themselves and to be careful not to get their heart broken by boys and the boys to be a gentlemen, give the seat to the elderly and not to break any girl's heart.
I've done both. I broke a heart and got my heart trampled. Its not a very nice feeling but i've learnt my lesson. You see, i got a little bit distracted by all these petty thoughts. I seriously need to get back to work and hold on to some re-focusing.
Thank you to all you lovely souls out there who've been kind and sweet enough to check in on me everyday. (you know who you're not) Such dears.
Thank you naufal, for the endless talk at nights. I'm gonna miss you a lot comes september.
Right, i'm gonna finish my chicken sausage roll and latte, take my pills and head home.
Where you think i am right now? I'm at starbucks nearby my house. This is ibah you're talking about. She can only be glued on the bed for five days, its a record so far. And i got my MC for two more days coz i'm still not quite heal. Went to MPH last saturday with my sis and bought two more books to read.
One of the book is a cheap one called 'the siren of solace glen' by some not so famous writer.
RM4.90 for a camaraderie.
.patut lah.
kawan-kawan,
saya kena chicken pox.
i'm gonna be on a long hiatus. yes, at the point of typing this in, i'm at the office and will be leaving shortly. received tons of calls from all my friends "ibah!!!!! hang gila! aku kawen 18hb ni hang tak dapat shoot ka?" "ibah!!! jangan la tak shoot wedding aku....aku tamau orang lain! aku nak kau jugak ambik! *sob sob*"
well, err...ermm...i....ermm.
heck, how am i suppose to know la i kena chicken pox??? i'm all healthy before i start to pop the little thing that tumbuh on my hand....woopsie! but no worries...patience all! i'll try to recover ASAP!
jy, if you are reading this....looks like its gonna be soooo long before we go photoshooting together.
and to those who've been hugging and blowing me kisses for the past few days....err korang dah pernah kena chicken pox ke? err err err....
*scratch scratch*
aiyoh.
saya kena chicken pox.
i'm gonna be on a long hiatus. yes, at the point of typing this in, i'm at the office and will be leaving shortly. received tons of calls from all my friends "ibah!!!!! hang gila! aku kawen 18hb ni hang tak dapat shoot ka?" "ibah!!! jangan la tak shoot wedding aku....aku tamau orang lain! aku nak kau jugak ambik! *sob sob*"
well, err...ermm...i....ermm.
heck, how am i suppose to know la i kena chicken pox??? i'm all healthy before i start to pop the little thing that tumbuh on my hand....woopsie! but no worries...patience all! i'll try to recover ASAP!
jy, if you are reading this....looks like its gonna be soooo long before we go photoshooting together.
and to those who've been hugging and blowing me kisses for the past few days....err korang dah pernah kena chicken pox ke? err err err....
*scratch scratch*
aiyoh.
. ibah and emotional turmoil.
Woke up with a terrible headache and a lousy feeling. It seems to be a long morning, as it feels practically impossible to get my motor running.
Once after a long while, i think i had enough. I had enough with the people around me, the slow-moving traffic, the polluted environment, the stupid design on my mug (i dont even know why i bought it at the first place), the turndowns i get in return of the friendship i gave, the negativity people throw at me, the lack of parking spaces, the drivers who cut the line in front of me, the songs on my mp3 playlist, my colleague's annoying ringtones, timbaland's "the way i are" and the list goes on. In other words, i'm practically annoyed with pretty much everything.
Today, i am not a positive ibah.
I dont like to sigh, dont like to whine and wail eventhough i do complaint quite a lot; because its tiring to the mind. Tak penat ke sigh sigh sigh? PENAT! i'm tired of listening/reading/looking at the word SIGH.
It suck me in and weigh me down to the ground.
Think, i am immune to turndowns too. "Malas lah." "Malas lah." "Malas lah." Nak buat macam mana, melayu memang ada yang pemalas for real. I'm the kinda person who appreciate those who is close and dearest to me. I can drive up to anywhere just to be there for them, with them, but its annoying to be turn down by a lame excuse like "ala...malaslah." or "ala...i takde mood." It happen lots of time already and i say hell. I dont really mind if its because of real excuses like sickness or work. Gosh.
I'm even mad at those who attack me with sarcastic jokes just because they are bitter o_O
A friend told me to take it easy.
Perhaps, all i need is a little space for myself..even just for a day. Perhaps i've been pushing myself too hard this time.
Breathe in, breathe out.
Once after a long while, i think i had enough. I had enough with the people around me, the slow-moving traffic, the polluted environment, the stupid design on my mug (i dont even know why i bought it at the first place), the turndowns i get in return of the friendship i gave, the negativity people throw at me, the lack of parking spaces, the drivers who cut the line in front of me, the songs on my mp3 playlist, my colleague's annoying ringtones, timbaland's "the way i are" and the list goes on. In other words, i'm practically annoyed with pretty much everything.
Today, i am not a positive ibah.
I dont like to sigh, dont like to whine and wail eventhough i do complaint quite a lot; because its tiring to the mind. Tak penat ke sigh sigh sigh? PENAT! i'm tired of listening/reading/looking at the word SIGH.
It suck me in and weigh me down to the ground.
Think, i am immune to turndowns too. "Malas lah." "Malas lah." "Malas lah." Nak buat macam mana, melayu memang ada yang pemalas for real. I'm the kinda person who appreciate those who is close and dearest to me. I can drive up to anywhere just to be there for them, with them, but its annoying to be turn down by a lame excuse like "ala...malaslah." or "ala...i takde mood." It happen lots of time already and i say hell. I dont really mind if its because of real excuses like sickness or work. Gosh.
I'm even mad at those who attack me with sarcastic jokes just because they are bitter o_O
A friend told me to take it easy.
Perhaps, all i need is a little space for myself..even just for a day. Perhaps i've been pushing myself too hard this time.
Breathe in, breathe out.
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